so blue

last summer realizing my hallway was the only part of my apartment no one could possibly see in without having to shut all the blinds

crying in the hallway

i spent like a week waiting til nighttime to listen to don't start now by dua lipa so loud it would make my ears ring after. out of breath just moving around in the dark like it was a music video. mostly in my hallway, hoping my neighbors couldn't hear anything but not actually caring

this year it's driver's license however many months too late, crying about the person i was last year, the idiot i was when i fell in love. how that was the same idiot that went through everything. seems insane imo. still fuckin loveeeee you babeeee